Feeling good, feeling hope, feeling focussed
It’s three months tomorrow , thirteen weeks today, since I started testosterone. So much has happened to me and it has to be said it has been tough for me so far. But things are beginning to level out for now. I have done a three part vlog update on my Youtube channel MrStubborndog and it definitely feels like I am turning a corner and growing in confidence again finally now. It is quite possible that the internal hormonal battle is easing up now my T levels are taking effect. I haven’t had a bleed now in 5 weeks and my cycle has been 24-5 days for many years now so I KNOW that is a change and a very welcome one at that!!
In these vlogs I talk about some of the physical changes I have seen, the shifts and changes in my mood and patience levels. I speak about leaving my job and the prospect of reinventing the professional me as a now qualified counsellor who is actively seeking to get back emotionally fit to practice. I share my feelings about parenthood and the prospect of seeking a sperm donor in order for us to try and conceive a child where Carmen will be mum and I will be dad, albeit one that fires invisible blanks I talk about the prospect of using new reproductive technologies for trans-fertility. Lastly I give thanks – to everyone out there, transguys and all for sharing our stories; and a very special thanks to my former workmates at the Youth Offending Service I now used to work for.
Many thanks in advance for watching them, feel free to pass them on to others and also to comment here or on the vid itself. It’s really helpful to get feedback.