Stubborn Dogs
a real-life journey of discovery, acceptance and change…

Posts Tagged ‘Two Spirit

Feeling good, feeling hope, feeling focussed

August 27, 2010

It’s three months tomorrow , thirteen weeks today, since I started testosterone. So much has happened to me and it has to be said it has been tough for me so far. But things are beginning to level out for now. I have done a three part vlog update on my Youtube channel MrStubborndog and […]

Feral Daydreams – a poem

August 19, 2010

It has been nearly two years since I last wrote a poem. Two years at the end of September. That was a special poem as it was like a diary, recording my growing feelings soon after Carmen and I met and were on our first holiday together in Cornwall. I’ve always written poetry in fits […]

Fire in my head

May 26, 2010

What is happening to me now feels like a rebirth. I am on the cusp quite literally of beginning my physical somatic transition. Each and every cell in my body will feel the surge of a hormone familiar from childhood and captured ethereally in my masculinity since then. Except that this time I will feel […]

The Meaning of Life

May 17, 2010

I am feeling like a pre-pubescent boy, flushing in anticipation of the rising tide of masculinity that comes with the boost to testosterone which puberty brings. Sometimes I cannot even think straight. I have a lot of adrenaline flowing through me right now, like an energy is rising as I transition. So it has got […]

International Congress on Gender Identity and Human Rights – June 4-6, 2010 in Barcelona, Spain

April 10, 2010

For more information visit On behalf of the International Executive Committee (IEC) and Local Organizing committee (LOC), we are pleased to announce the International Congress on Gender Identity and Human Rights, June 4-6, 2010 in Barcelona, Spain. Never before has a government organized an international conference with a specific focus on transgender rights. Transgender […]

Easter musings from an ex-martyr transman

April 2, 2010

Three years ago at Easter I was still in shock after my partner left me. It was a beautiful sunny Easter and as I was slap bang in the middle of my counselling diploma course. I was writing, drawing, painting and sculpting my way around all the mixed up feelings that were flowing around my […]

What Happens When You Find the One…And He’s Nothing—Nothing—Like You Expected?

April 2, 2010

Allison Cooper and home with her fiance After years of relationships that never seemed to fit, Allison Cooper finally met her match. And he was nothing—nothing—like she’d imagined. The whole article was published in the Oprah Magazine, 18 March 2010. You can read it here: This is a love story. Like every other. And like […]

Sunny side up is how I want my stress please…

March 30, 2010

It’s hard to be cheerful all the time, with a genuine sunny smile. Some days I really don’t feel like that at all and I shrivel and curl up inside with my jaw grinding as methodically as I breathe. But at least you know that when I smile I mean it, and quite a few […]

I can see myself scoring a goal in this game now!

February 6, 2010

  This has been yet another rollercoaster week for me and, indeed, for some of the people around me too! I have now found out quite how long I am going to have to wait now for my first appointment with the Gender Identity Clinic (GIC) in London. It’s a long time…. It was three weeks […]

Climbing out of the Abyss – part 3b

January 24, 2010

KAPOW!!! KAPOW!!! The next two cartoon sucker punches to my already reeling mind-body-spirit continuum came in quick succession in the middle of my first supervision session with my manager last week. Regular readers will know that I am lucky to have a line-manager who has bent over backwards to make sure that I know I am […]


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